Unperfect Woman

Have you ever felt a certain way about someone, knowing that logically you shouldn't feel that way, but you just can't help how you feel?
Have you ever wanted something so bad that it literally makes you ill because you know it will never materialize?
Have you ever put all your hopes and dreams in one basket and prayed, night on end, that it would all work out?
If I were the "perfect" woman I would not let a single person have that much control over me. One person should not be able to dominate all of my dreams and aspirations for the future. It is very much past the right time, but how do I let go of a dream that I have held on to for so long? It logically does not make sense to keep praying, wishing, hoping, and dreaming that a certain outcome will happen, knowing full well that it never will. What my brain rationalizes and what my heart feels are two completely different things. How do I make my heart let go?
I can't.
I'll go to bed tonight and dream the same dream that I have drempt for the past 2 years. I will wake up tomorrow and go through the motions again. I will live tomorrow with chest pains and headaches, because that is how a broken heart manifests in my body. I will probably cry at least twice. I will feel sad, broken, remourseful, angry, betrayed, regretful, and hopeless. But, I WILL get up tomorrow and I will NOT give up on my dream. No matter how out of reach it may be.

"Unperfect" Parent

Sometimes we really don't understand the workings of a child. In striving to be the best or fit in with the proverbial "Jones'" we rush our children into maturity. All too frequently this results in putting negative labels on our kids. Maybe instead of expecting "perfect" children we should embrace their innocence and let them be kids for as long as possible.
S/He is not Hyperactive but Energetic
S/He is not Impulsive but Spontaneous
S/He is not Distractable but Creative
S/He is not a Daydreamer but Imaginative
S/He is not Inattentive but a Global thinker with a wide focus
S/He is not Unpredictable but Flexible
S/He is not Argumentative but Independent
S/He is not Stubborn but Committed
S/He is not Irritable but Sensitive
S/He is not Aggressive but Assertive
I remember a time, not too long ago, when someone I knew and trusted suggested my (then 6 year old son) had A.D.H.D. This person worked very closely with children so I valued her opinion, but I remember telling her "He's fine. He's a normal 6 year old boy." My son is now a very normal 8 year old boy, and no, he does not have A.D.H.D. However, my feeling were (and still are) very hurt by her comments. It seems it was too easy for her to label my son with a "defect" when, in fact, it was just that she could not handle the energy of a young boy.
We will all look back in 5 - 10 - 15 years and say to ourselves "where has the time gone?". It's rather simple, they grew up too fast because we pushed them to. Let them be kids while they still can be.

"Unperfect" Parent

So last night I had my son (who is 8 years old) out until after 11:30p.m........ on a school night!
I didn't intend for it to be that late but things don't always go the way you have them planned.
My friend wanted to get her hair permed so I went with her after I got out of work at 5. The people at the 1st place we went to (Fantastic Sam's - Yup, negative plug here) were too lazy to do it. The 2nd place we went to was too busy. The 3rd place couldn't work with chemicals "past 6 o'clock". So off to Sally's we went (postivive plug for Sally's). 6 packages of curling rods, 1 box of papers, 1 bag of cotton, and a box of perm solution later and off to her house we go! I got to do my 1st perm ever and I think I did a pretty good job! The only problem is it took about 3 hours, not bad considering it was my 1st attempt. But that still put my son and I home after 11:30 p.m. He's fine, he'll live. I let him sleep in this morning and am taking him to school instead of letting the bus take him. That gave him an extra half of an hour to sleep.
But the "perfect" parent would have made sure their child was home by bed time. I'm so glad I'm not a "perfect" parent. We all had too much fun last night!

"Unperfect" Employee

It began about 2 months ago. It was a bright sun-shiny day and our power at work went out. It was only out for a couple of seconds but when it came back on my phone was staticky. I don't mean just a slight buzz. No, I mean full out static.
I have tried everything. I switched the hand set, I switched the cord that goes from the phone to the hand set, I switched the phone, and I switched the cord that goes from the phone into the wall. I have even went to the main phone box to make sure everything was connected.... all to no avail. My boss knows, her boss knows, the BIG bosses know but nobody wants to do anything about it since they don't have to deal with it. Alas, I have resulted to lying or hanging up on people.
When the static gets so bad that I cannot hear the person on the other end I will just hang up. Then, I will high-tail it out of the office so when they call back (and they always do) my boss will have to answer the phone. If someone says something, well "I didn't know anybody was there. I couldn't hear anything but static." Usually I will be on the phone with someone and the static will increase. In that case the phone conversation goes something like this... Caller: "I was wondering if you have SHHHH-CRRRRR-SHSHCOHSNFO" Me: "No, sorry we don't carry that."
The way I see it, if this company wants to make money they should get my phone fixed! I'm doing the best I can but it's awfully difficult to answer a phone when you can't hear anything but SHHHHHH-CRRRRRR-SSSSSHHHHHH-CLSOEINLGKSJEOHASLOHGOWH.

"Unperfect" Employee

I am a facebook addict. I have tried to limit my time on facebook, especially at work, but I still find myself mindlessly wasting hours on pointless games.
I thought it was a little strange when a facebook friend sent me a link to a video. This particular friend never sends me messages, but I thought if it was good enough for him to send then it must be really good! So, not giving it a second thought I clicked through... and that's when the madness started.
Apparently it was a virus that had attacked him, and the message was sent to everyone on his friends list. Now that I clicked on the link it did the same to me. Not only that, but it started giving me pop-ups every 30 seconds. At one point I walked away from my desk only to come back and find a pop-up of some woman undressing. Keep in mind this is all happening on my WORK computer.
At this point I am sweating buckets! Not a year ago a few people were fired for downloading crap that has viruses. I'm starting to see visions of pink slips and unemployment offices in my head.
Now, I'm not a computer genius and I still have no clue what a "Trojan Virus" is, but I know that is what I had. I deleted my temporary internet files, deleted my cookies, increased my level of protection.... nothing helped. So off to the good ole' stand by I went.... www.ask.com I searched for "how to remove a trojan virus" and lo-and-behold I got a good response. BUT I don't have administrative rights at work... will it allow me to download the program?
Yes, it did! And best of all.... it actually worked! My job is safe..... for now.....